Sounds like the dance competition played a pretty big part in her love life! As you know, Nicki Bella found her fiancé and her father who was not yet born in the star-studded dance, but it turns out that was not all!
In her new memoir, Nicki reveals that her time at DWTS really helped her ‘wake up’ from her miserable relationship with John Cena.
However, in the end, it led to her realizing that she had to end things with him.
“I have a lot of regrets about that relationship,” the pregnant star writes in her joint book with Sister Berry.
She continues to comment on her father leaving them at 15 and how the issues she has developed as a result have really influenced her romance with John Cena.
She said she needed a performance on the star-studded dance, where she also met her fiancé, Artem Chigwenzev, to finally fulfill some things!
I wish I understood how my patterns of life, and my relationship with my father, informed me of how I respond to love, boundaries and feelings of abandonment. I think I could prevent some of that from happening. ‘
Nikki writes that she really felt ‘almost lonely pathologically’ while still dating John.
‘I just didn’t know the emotion. I certainly didn’t know what to ask for. I was running from a place of fear of losing something I wanted (my ex), but I also wanted to be perfect for him because I wanted him to have a perfect life. ‘
She explains how she really wanted her to have a place in his ‘busy and big life’, which unfortunately came when she could not express her wishes and needs.
Nikki apparently “fulfilled my desire for marriage and the deepest children I could … while I really wanted those things – I just wanted him more.”
As for the reason she had a revelation while she was at DWTS, is that she managed to live alone for a while.
The producers got her an apartment in L.A. For 11 weeks for production purposes.
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Turns out she loved being alone again and doing whatever she wanted.
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